[ because it is. but malkuth had long resolved to look her history, their in the face, and come to terms with everything without looking away or making excuses.
... though she still lingers quietly for a moment before she answers, giving it another turn in her thoughts before coming with the same answer she does every time. ]
No, I wouldn't. Not just because that project would've been The City's salvation, not just because the agents we'd employed had been those without anything left to lose... but because we would've died at the end, too. I wouldn't be standing here if it'd gone without a hitch, and I used to curse Angela every day for making us live anyway.
[ but death would've been welcome. would've been its own atonement. why was ayin allowed it, but no one else? she shakes her head. ]
I'd do it all over again. There's things I'd change, with the knowledge I have now, but I'd join Carmen, I'd keep on with the Project, I'd work until my last breath to change that city.
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[ because it is. but malkuth had long resolved to look her history, their in the face, and come to terms with everything without looking away or making excuses.
... though she still lingers quietly for a moment before she answers, giving it another turn in her thoughts before coming with the same answer she does every time. ]
No, I wouldn't. Not just because that project would've been The City's salvation, not just because the agents we'd employed had been those without anything left to lose... but because we would've died at the end, too. I wouldn't be standing here if it'd gone without a hitch, and I used to curse Angela every day for making us live anyway.
[ but death would've been welcome. would've been its own atonement. why was ayin allowed it, but no one else? she shakes her head. ]
I'd do it all over again. There's things I'd change, with the knowledge I have now, but I'd join Carmen, I'd keep on with the Project, I'd work until my last breath to change that city.