That creature's aim was to kill you once there was nothing but a body left. What good would that have done me?
[A temporary death, only for them to come back with yet another piece missing. A victim, a witness. Someone who could question his motives, or at least was more likely to avoid him rather than do as he asked.
That he didn't manage to complete that aim with any of them was... a relief would be too strong a word. "It could be worse." A phrase he's always detested, no matter how true.]
I hated— [myself] —this place. For forcing me to lose control and do something I didn't intend.
[He doesn't say that he ached to think of stealing from them what little they had, and of making them suffer when they already had several lifetimes' worth of it. It would be stupid to admit, when he's just expressed a willingness to ignore their desires now, but—for a moment his grip twitches around their hand and there's a pain in his eyes the late hour doesn't allow him to hide.]
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[A temporary death, only for them to come back with yet another piece missing. A victim, a witness. Someone who could question his motives, or at least was more likely to avoid him rather than do as he asked.
That he didn't manage to complete that aim with any of them was... a relief would be too strong a word. "It could be worse." A phrase he's always detested, no matter how true.]
I hated— [myself] —this place. For forcing me to lose control and do something I didn't intend.
[He doesn't say that he ached to think of stealing from them what little they had, and of making them suffer when they already had several lifetimes' worth of it. It would be stupid to admit, when he's just expressed a willingness to ignore their desires now, but—for a moment his grip twitches around their hand and there's a pain in his eyes the late hour doesn't allow him to hide.]
I had to prove I could overcome that.